feeling of distance

sometimes, modern communication make me sad.

it can monitor the wall is building up, the distance is getting far, and the friendship seems to be cooling down.

if there is not facebook, whatspp, IM, mat be i will never feel the heat fade away.

at the airport, at the moment of departure, we can frozen the heat. and many years later, see each other again and un-frozen it.

but now, i can feel the heat is going away. less reply, may be i am not important.

but why i am important? why i want to be important?

i am still an attention - seeking child.

sometimes, i really like Schopenhauer, coz i know, i never be the man in his world.

有時候 我會相信一切有盡頭, 可是我 有時候 寧願選擇留戀不放手.

we have a bicycle race, Eunice goes first. the starting trace of mine is difference from her, it is a long deep sloppy road, the bicycle is almost out of control, i mean, it only controlled by gravity. later on, the path becomes vertical, and even upside down.

i have a coma, when i wake up, the event holder, who also like eunice, told me he already stayed with Eunice for 2 and half hours. When Eunice comes, she said she had no choice.

She stay with me,  she is tried. we sleep and cuddle together. her face still give me great impression.

after we wake up, Eunice just walk away, and i feel lonely, so lonely. i need some attention.

there are 2 whites boxes above a pile of garbage, on a boat, sailing away.  inside 2 whites boxes, are the voice msg i gave her few days ago.


 

too bad that i am an attention seeker, especially for those who i care. i thought during the stay in japan, i will used to lonely, be more independent, be lesser attention seeking. to accept there is nothing worthy to show. but i am just an attention seeker, who, sometimes, really want someone care about me.